47. But then again, what do I know?
Getting inspired for my blog looks like consuming my favourite types of media: music, TV and film and “how I got here” articles from writers I admire. But when Carrie Bradshaw’s only showing me what not to do (almost always) and I feel as frantic as Claire Dunphy (often), I realise I need to look elsewhere for creative muse. Something real, unlike my fictional support television shows. I turn to my wise advisory Co-Star. In a somewhat desperate attempt to gain some guidance earlier this week, the astrology app told me to “be honest with yourself about what you know and don’t know”. And thus I was inspired to write the piece you’re reading now.
The elusive statement strikes me as a comment on naivety and being self-aware about the things we are not certain of or are yet to learn.
It can apply to twenty-somethings worrying about their future, wondering if they’re on the right path to their dreams. It can apply to the parents giving advice to their children, despite growing up in different generations; they must observe the things they once knew and be cautious of things they may not know, to find the right balance.
The statement can even apply to those who wrote these prompts and horoscopes for the Co-Star app. When delivering one-liners on my day ahead or compatibility with other users of the app, I ask you: are you being honest with yourself about what you do and don’t know?
Now I haven’t always believed in the offerings of the world of astrology, I never felt I truly identified with my star sign (I’m a Scorpio in case you wanted to run now). I always believed I was kind-hearted, charming and more Libra-oriented, which makes sense because my birthday falls on the cusp of the two signs. As I collect more life experiences, I find myself fitting the bill of a Scorpio: honest, intense, independent and not-one-to-take-bullshit. I don’t know that these traits I see in myself are directly related to my star sign. It’s hard to believe that they could manifest similarly in the other millions of Scorpios in the world.
Of course, having an app to spit a quote at me every day doesn’t always catapult me into a state of self-reflection, I know I’m not at an advantage by reading its affirmations or forewarnings. I know that I must make informed decisions on my own. I know that I like not knowing things (as mentioned in my last few paragraphs here). I’ve spent my whole life pretending or believing that I am wise and knowledgeable but I am sick of ruining things, tricking myself into believing that I know what’s going to happen. Naivety is a tool that illuminates options we cannot always see when thoroughly dissecting scenarios or plans.
I don’t always know what to write my blog on each week or where this blog will take me, and thanks to the recent reminder from Co-Star, I know there’s no need to.
