01. Holding myself back

Looking back on my laptop, I can see that I have been “at this” toying with the idea of writing since 2019. 2019!!! That was four years ago. What have I been doing since? And why haven’t I spent time writing? I can answer that simply; it is fear. Fear of failure, of something not being perfect. Of beginning something and not finishing it. Four years of not having the courage to finish a piece of writing, without letting the self-induced pressure win.

So, let’s talk about being uncomfortable. We all have something that we want to do, try, or learn for the first time, yet tell no one. Not even our friends who we talk to all day. Not those who we live with or our partners and closest friends. I’m asking myself why I don’t tell them about this blog. For you, it could be wanting to learn an instrument or move to another country. Maybe you’re taking up painting or another art form.

None of these things are objectively “embarrassing”, it gets easier to include people after you’ve told just one. Since telling two of my closest friends, I feel like I’m allowing myself to do it, and now I get excited to work on it. And I know that post by post, they’ll slowly get better with experience. But I won’t get better by not writing at all.

Take this stumble of a first blog post as your sign to tell someone a mini-dream of yours! Something you’ve always wanted to do, big or small. Whether it be starting a podcast or learning calligraphy, tell someone. And just start. Good luck :)